DANGERS of HCG Diet

The first round of my hcg diet went well, I lost a lot of weight... as with any diet.. they all work if you stick to them. So I did begin to gain a lb or two back when I forgot how to eat.

My second round started off the same way... it was working and I was elated... however other things started to go bad.

My hair started falling out, my moods were low, I believe that my vitamin D deficiency may also be in part the use of this diet.

I am in the process of finding out why my hair is falling out, my moods are low and so on.

I think that I may being going into peri menopause, do I blame the HCG diet.. I do.
I think it pushed me into peri menopause, I may have been headed that way anyway... however I think that when messing with hormones... you will pay the price.

If you are healthy and young you may not have to worry about doing the HCG diet. Just be aware of all the facts.

I am healthy... but I also had a hysterectomy because of a tumor at the age of 35 and only have one overy, I am 42 years old and my likely hood of early menopause is higher than others.

I stopped and no longer recommend the HCG diet if you have the same concerns as me. As far as someone in a different situation then the HCG diet may be for you. It just wasn't for me.

ROUND II

Here I am, ready for round two! I was pretty successful at keeping my weight off, I did gain back 6 lbs but I didn't stay eating the way that I probably should have.
This is my first loading day and this is the list of what I have had so far.
3 McDonalds Hashbrowns with mayo and ketsup
2 egg and cheese mc muffins with mayo
1 large carmel frappe'
2 pieces of KFC original
2 helpings of mashed potatoes and gravy and two biscuits
2.5 krispy cream donuts ( donut appreciation day today!)
It is only 2:33 pm.

I am excited to get to the weight lost part of this diet. Eating like this isn't as enjoyable as it should be. Not only has my eating habits changed but so has my desire and my taste buds. The KFC was aweful, it isn't whole food by any means, it is processed and it tastes processed, the chicken had a faint flavor of re heated oil full of carcinogens I am sure! The potatoes probably had NO potato in it at all. Same with McD's food .. I DID enjoy my donuts though!

After this round of my diet I may post the before and after photos. Why we took them in my underwear... I have no idea. I think that was how it was suggested that we did it. I don't know, but I wish I hadn't done that ha!

lost a total of 27 lbs.

End of diet.
think I will have another go at it. I lost a ton of weight but knew that I would have to do the diet at least twice to lose as much as I needed. I was at 232lb's previously and am at 205lb's now. Planned on NOT sharing my weight at all on this blog but what the hay?
Total loss of baggage = 27 lbs to date. woo hoo!

day 38 dinner

Total Calories for Dinner is 151. YES, I said 151 calories for dinner... and I am full!

And it was delicious!

I do not use mayonaise with my tuna fish because it is "white death" as my eldest brother says. It is unhealthy and fattening! Instead I use balsamic vinegar and fresh garlic, and sometimes a little olive oil.

INGREDIENTS & DIRECTIONS

15 oz of strained tuna-468 calories

4TBS Balsamic Vinegar-20 calories

2 Celery Stalks chopped-25 calories

1 Large Clove garlic chopped very small-calories unknown

1/4 Small Onion-15 calories

1/2 Small apple chopped small-40 calories

1 TBS Extra virgin olive oil-35 calories

15 calories added for seasoning

I took all these ingredients and mixed well adding salt,pepper and seasoning to taste.

After mixed well I decided to add a small handful of parsley from the garden and didn't count those calories but I am sure it was minimal, it helps with the garlic and onion breath  ;).

I then cut 4 big beautifully colored red bell peppers and cleaned them out and stuffed them with the mixture.

that is it.

ONE full bell pepper with tuna stuffing came to 151 calories. The whole amount, 4 stuffed peppers comes to 607 calories.

I was totally satisfied due to the fact that I had a snack of 1 inch square of bri and 1 oz of almonds and two hot wings skin removed.

But just think, it is almost 9 pm and I am supposed to eat 1500 calories a day and I am only at 1156, and that is because I had two TBS of all natural peanut butter after dinner just to bring my calories up closer to 1500.

It is really really easy to be satisfied with 1500 calories a day, as long as you don't eat processed foods full of carbs.

Day 38 Lunch...

Diet going well, I have maintained my weight and it isn't hard at all. I haven't been hungry  because I have enough food to eat but have had some cravings... I also accidentally had something that i wasn't supposed to which kept me frightened until my weigh in the next morning. I am allowed to have diet soda and while in a class for my HypnoBirthing (R) which was held at a hotel in Scottsdale I reached for an ice cold can of sprite, drank it down and then realized what I had done! I had diet soda all weekend and by the 3rd day of all day class I decided that I wanted something different, sprite sounded so refreshing and down it went in about 2 minutes.. the can was 140 calories and I just added that to my calorie intake for the day.

Today I had white fish and salsa on a bed of lettuce from my garden, mixed with cabbage, bell pepper, parsley, fresh garlic, balsamic vinegar and juice of a lemon. It wasn't the best meal that I have created but it was okay and good enough to eat the whole thing. I had been wanting a taco salad but had to settle for this. I used the cabbage for the crunch that I would miss from going without tortilla chips.

274 Calories

This was 5oz of white fish
Two tablespoons of salsa
340 grams of a mix of greens and cabbage
1/4 bell pepper
hand full of parsley
juice of 1/4 of lemon
2 tbs of Balsamic Vinegar
and season to taste
You can add a TB or two of plain yogurt for sour cream, I just forgot.
You can add Avocado, I didn't because we were out.
If you add the 1/2 of an avocado and 2 TBS of Yogurt the total is 430 Calories. This is a lot of food once you mix it all together you may not think that you can finish it. The protein from the fish and the avocado will help sustain your appetite for several hours, we try and eat every 2 to 3 hours, this will keep us full that we won't even be hungry for our next snack. We usually have 1 oz of almonds and an apple or banana for a snack.

If you have never substituted plain yogurt for sour cream, I suggest you try. The calories are a lot less and when mixed in a taco salad or on a taco or baked potato... you can't even tell the difference. I have put some out on the table in a decorative glass container and served it to guests.. they assumed it was sour cream and kept going back for more... some of these guests were my own teens and their friends. It isn't easy passing one over on a teen!

Day 35

So today we were running around so much and couldn't be at the house for dinner time. It was 7:00pm and we usually eat between 5:30 and 7:00 depending on our work schedule. We still had a few stops to make and decided that we would have to eat out. We have been craving sushi so headed towards the Blue Wasabi restaurant. We had some Miso soup and  Sashimi It was beautiful!

We went shopping, we needed some new clothes due to our weight loss, mind you we haven't bought anything since our 25 lb loss. Mike was very excited to have lost a whole pant size, I had bought some jewelry.... before they never fit on my sausage fingers, and a sexy little number for around the house.

We started talking, this subject has come up before. It is the subject of "what happens after the diet", honestly it is a scary place. I still know that I eat like a "fat girl", I may not eat the quantity or the types of food as I did a couple of months ago but I do feel as though I am not prepared to be off the diet. This is where counseling would be handy, or some really good long hard looks into who I am and why I do what I do to myself when it comes to foods.

At dinner, I was totally satisfied (physically) with the 6 pieces of sashimi and miso soup and glass of water. My belly was full.. the real kind of full... not the uncomfortable... lethargic... stuffed feeling that I normally feel like after a visit to the sushi house. I felt physically satisfied but I know that if I was not on my diet that I would have ate twice if not three times as much... this scares me!

Mike and I discussed what we are going to do to keep on track, to not gain weight, to not fall back into our old habits and this is where things get a little hard. We both think differently about it, he isn't so black and white and I am very black and white. I want rules, I want a script to follow, I want to be held accountable. He doesn't want to be micro managed and if he feels like a thick deep crust XL pizza with fifteen beers than he is going to eat it. I say... UH...NOOO! then I will eat it Toooo!!!

That is MY issue, I want him to be strong so that I don't have to be so strong... I think that we shouldn't eat that way ever... we can have a small pizza and 1 large beer and call that a splurge. NOW just because we think differently doesn't mean that either one of us are wrong. We work in different ways, but with this conversation.. I learned that I push and pressure others to do what I want or think that I should do and that's just not right.

This diet has made me look inside myself, deep inside myself and it is going to be hard to keep looking at the ugly truth... that I am weaker than I thought, that I have issues that need to be addressed, that I need to stop trying to micro manage everyone around me and keep looking inside and asking the hard questions. That is scary and this diet has kind of opened my eyes to me and shed a different light on who I am in my eyes.

Not just the diet, it is a combination of plenty of things but the diet along with a great boyfriend and my hypnotherapy schooling ... it all has brought a lot of things to the surface.

This relationship with food that I have is unhealthy... the relationship with food has been an umbrella from the truth of who I am and what I am afraid of and I love that I am seeing things in a new perspective.

This journey is not going to be a long journey, it is going to be a life time journey. I am at a point now that I realize that life is hard... it is supposed to be, doing the right thing is hard and is supposed to be, looking inside is even harder and it won't be easier tomorrow than it was today.. it is a life long job.

My relationship with my boyfriend has grown too.. we are treating our diet like we are treating our relationship.. we need to work on it every day.. that is how we get success... we haven't conquered everything, and we won't... it is a daily job to work at what we want and allow the other to be themselves.

I would love to hear comments about how you feel about my journey!

Day 34

so, I had some issues. I was pissed that I couldn't lose anymore weight but still had to portion food.. and for how long? Did I say 8 weeks.. 6 wks, 8 wks... didn't matter!

I am still bothered, it is harder than 500 calories because when I was doing the first phase at 500 calories a day, I had the reward of weight loss.

BUT, it has gotten easier, I am less pissed and have tried to look at it another way... not easy but I am turning around. During this phase I have not only begun setting my metabolism but have learned how to combine meals or create low calorie meals... I am still not hungry and I really enjoy the foods that I am eating. For instance listed below are the calories and contents of the salad pictured above:

This salad consists of 2.5 ozGreens, 2.5 ozwild trout, 1/2 a red bell pepper, 1\2 an avocado, 1 hard boiled egg, a little bit of seasoning, a little bit of fresh garlic and a little bit of fresh rosemary from the garden and 2 tbls. of Balsamic vinegar and a lovely glass of wine..... this meal was less than 500. Without the wine the meal was 320 calories. DEEEEE LISH!

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day 30

This phase seems to be the hardest, I liked phase one, 500 calories was much easier by far and not just because it was more disciplined but because I was able to lose wieght and that kept me motivated.... I am able to eat more calories and an assorment of other food that I couldn't in the last phase but everything about this is harder for me! I can't lose or gain more than 2 lbs, what is motivating me to be so disciplined when I cant even enjoy losing a lb... finding that this would be a good phase to probably do a support group.

day 27

Wow! Time has gotten away! I am so sorry that I haven't been keeping you posted.

So, I am at my limit of loss weight, I must sustain my weight for 6 weeks before I can go back on the diet and before I can lose anymore weight. They call this the "maintenance phase" and this is when you set your metabolism.

To date, In 27 days I have lost a total of 20 lbs. I feel wonderful and my clothes look horrible on me because they are too big but I dont care.

We are able to eat 1500-2000 calories, but of certain foods. We now can add a lot of stuff that we weren't able to eat prior to this phase and also mix our veggies.

We can have Peanut butter, cottage cheese, almonds, fatty fish such as salmon etc.,hamburgur, ketchup, spicy wings, any veggie except.. starchy ones like potatoes, corn, beets etc.

Today was our first day of being able to eat these foods and we celebrated by bringing in the new phase with 1 cup of cottage cheese at midnight. Yes, I couldn't sleep last night and thought... you know what! it is tomorrow (being midnight) so I CAN EAT A FORBIDDEN FOOD. It was wonderful!

Yesterday we precooked our food for the next day... I browned the beef and added the tomato, garlic and onion, along with seasonings while my boyfriend added the calories. We were making cabbage rolls.

We were excited to be adding all these foods and thought that this would be fun, it was fun but also stressful. Atleast the shopping part which I forgot to tell you about, before we cooked all the that wonderful delicious food we had to plan and shop for it. It took us almost two hours to figure out what we could eat, how many calories were in what foods and then debated how the heck to divide that into portions, it was stressful.We are told that this frusteration will pass and that we will feel more comfortable about the math and calculations of diet planning.
I have never HAD to think about food so much in my life, not only am I dieting at home but I am in a Nutrition class at school and feel as though all I do, read, write, and hear about is food.. the what nots and the how to eating.

My boyfriend has lost a total of 25 lbs and feels just as good as I do. So, all in all this diet THUS far is what is has promised.

Today we also had our Coctail administered, in our diet package  they included Hypnotherapy and IV treatment along with Vitamin B shots called Lipo b or something like that. The Coctail is a liquid form of vitamins and minerals to replace what is possibly lost in this diet, to replenish vitamins and minerals and give you a boost after treating your body this way.

I am really glad that we decided to pay the extra money that we had to for this diet and recieve the extra care. Losing weight is an emotional thing, gaining weight is too and being able to have the hypnosis treatments has not left our the fact that our weight isn't just food and diet issues. They treat the whole person and this has been instumental to our success.

Day 22

Yes, I am still on the diet... I was feeling under the weather for a few days and didn't feel like writing much. I had an allergy issue that turned infection and wore me out. Being sick on this diet wasn't a good thing, I couldn't drink my water which didn't do well for my weight loss either, but the fact that I was ill and only eating a limited amount of calories when my body was trying to heal itself probably prolonged the illness

 I did start taking herbal tinctures regularly and it did help and finally when we had our weigh in... the doc told me that I could have gone off the shots for a couple of days to get better by completely dosing my body with herbal goodies but by this time I was on the up swing and it didn't matter.

I have lost a total of 24 lbs by my scale and feel wonderful (now that I am not all plugged up). I am a little bummed that once I decided to embrace my weight (right before the diet) and buy some decent clothing to wear, and donate smaller clothing... that I lose the weight.... Hmmmm. Yes, all my new clothes now are a bit baggy and I will have to shop some more... not to bummed about that!

Day 18

The first thing that we do in the morning is give ourselves our hcg shot, go to the bathroom and weigh ourselves.
This morning, I lost 0.2 lb's, 0.0 lbs yesterday... I am pretty sure it is becauseof the tinctures that I was taking for my cough, they say it takes a couple of days to show up on the scale if you cheat or don't follow the rules and that would make sense that I havedn't lost weight in the last two days.
HOW CAN I NOT LOSE weight with only eating 500 calories a day? I am not sure... I also didn't drink but about 40 oz. of water. FAR from my usual and instructed amount of water that I am supposed to intake.

Ya, keep to the diet, do no sway at all from the rules.

However I am not that bothered. I had to do what I had to do and I plan to do another round on this diet anyway. I am far from my goal weight of 160 lb and knew that I woudl have to do this diet twice to reach my desired weight.

on day 27 of our diet we get to up our calories or continue on with the 500 calories a day for a total of 40 days, I am not sure which one I intend on doing. Part of me thinks that waiting the few weeks in between would be beneficial and another part of me says the other would be best. I guess I will just need to talk to my physician and others who have been on this diet and see what they have done and what they think.

Did a little gardening today in our organic veggie garden. Today we will have beet greens for lunch with shrimp... maybe a shrimp salad!  Or perhaps lettuce from the garden.......

day 17

Not much to report today, but I do love my onions, I brown them... sliced real thin and stringy and cooked till thier sugars are browned and then put them on top of my fish or chicken or stk and yum!

No wieght was lost today but I swear the inches are drop drop dropping! Whoopee! Makes my day beautiful, Still sick though. My ribs hurt so much from coughing, could be allergies but I don't know. I am getting better, I have added an antiviral tincture and thought that it would totally ruin my diet since it is made with alcohol and alcohol is a carb with lots of sugar but if all it has done is made me feel better and stalled weight loss than I have to be okay with that. I don't do anti biotics unless I have to and even though I was close to it yesterday... I am glad that I didn't opt to do that.

two more days until weigh in.

Days 14, 15 and 16

~15 pounds lighter~

It is Getting closer to our 23rd day of the diet and we are looking forward to adding an additional abundance of calories to our diet but then I think that I will have a hard time eating all of that.. jumping from 500 calories to 1500 calories over night is going to be hard. As it is I am having trouble finishing my lunch and dinner at the 500 calories. I feel as though I am stuffing my face, I had trouble with lunch today.. it was about a 1/2 cup of lettuce that I couldn't finish, I bagged it up knowing that it is important for me to eat the entire amount but then still never got to it today, and then dinner.. same thing, couldnt' eat another bite and still had about 1/2 cup of my veggie... well, I did eat it but I had to force myself.

I have been sick for a couple of days, I am not sure what it is or what it is caused from. I don't think that it is caused by the diet otherwise my boyfriend would be sick or I would have heard of someone else getting sick but then again I am going thru a detox and anything is possible. I don't have a fever, just feel weak, lost my voice and am stuffy.

I dreamt of food last night, well... I dreamt of something and food appeared in my mouth and I had a choice to spit it out or swollow it, it was a cracker and some kind of spread... cheese spread I am sure. I swollowed it and felt guilty... I say that I don't crave food and am wondering if my sub concious is screaming for it, lol. Either that or I am worring about how I will introduce food back into my life post hcg diet. That exact topic has been a discussing between my boyfriend and I over the last few days.

We both keep losing weight, I think that my total is 15 lbs. I am at the point where my clothes are way to big, I must be losing a ton of inches and will see the Doctor on Thursday for my measurement and weigh in.

my water intake has slowed down, I was drinking one oz per lb of body weight and in the last couple of days have done about 1/2 that. ... it could be that I am tired of peeing all the time, I lose sleep over it because I don't always get to my desired amount until 8 pm. I added some lemon stevia and it helps me a bit so maybe it is also that I am tired of drinking plain water. I can have as much tea as I want as long as it is decaf but just haven't done that which is quite bizzare for an herbalist, I have every herb imaginable to steep!

Today I walked out of the bedroom with an outfit that I hadn't worn in a while due to the weight that I had gained and my daughters reaction was "wow" mom, you're so skinny!... fact is, I am not skinny but compared to 15 lbs and gawd knows how many inches ago, I look skinny to those who live under the same roof. I have to remind myself that I am not skinny (yet), it does feel like it though... but fact is... I am still over weight and probably considered obese... but what is obese anyway? right?

I am amazed how 15 lbs makes me feel, I feel lighter in my step, less pain in my back and more energy (when I am not under the weather)... I feel so much healthier and happier too.

Days 12 and 13

So, another lb lost and victory is sweet.

Honestly this diet isn't hard at all, Sure I miss food... sure it is tempting while cooking for others what I cannot enjoy but it isn't impossible.

What are my priorities is what it comes down to, my priority is my health and my weight and the foods that I miss are not leaving the planet, I WILL be able to eat them again. In moderation of course but I can have them if that is what I choose to do, will I ?

I am not sure, it is possible but maybe I will look at food differently after this diet... I am looking at it differently today and none of the foods that I love will be gone forever and  I will have temptations, I am sure but I will know better now and have the choice. I think it is good to satisfy cravings... I will just have to indulge with smaller portions of my favorite foods.

Our down fall, as Americans... is processed foods and portion. Trying to get back to the basics is not easy, it is our ignorance of food that causes weight gain and as consumers we need to wisen up, it is amazing the things that I have been learning about labels, laws etc., but we can't blame all of it on manufacturers... it is us who buys the processed foods and eats the portions that we eat.

For quite a long time our family had been eliminating processed foods from our diet and adding organic when we can, but still gained weight, we added healthier health food but still satisfied our desires of processed foods.

The transition hasn't been extremely hard though, on this diet we have been detoxing from sugar and gluten, I actually did go through some withdraws for the last couple of days that have been quite irritating, it hit me when I was sleeping, it was achey joints and body, I couldn't sleep or get comfortable and it was driving me mad.

I took epson salt baths, 5-6 cups of epson salt to the bathwater and soaked as long as I could.. I did mix other salts in too, Dead Sea Salt and Pink Himalayan Salt. The Salt Baths will help draw out the toxins and I now sleep much better, however if you suffer from high blood pressure it is NOT advised to do this method. Consult with your physician first!

Oh, I can't forget to add that my moods have been okay, I did have a couple of days that I was not a happy person but it wasn't related to being hungry because I haven't been hungry. My co workers say I have been much more social if anything and that could be due to the empowering feeling that I get succeeding thus far on this diet, I look and feel so much better and my confidence is better.

AMAZING BBQ PARTY THIS WEEK~!~

Days 9, 10 and 11

The diet has been going well, almost 10lbs lost now and my energy level is great! I am still not hungry and finding more and more enjoyment in the foods that I am allowed. I have skipped several days of hcg diet blogging because I have been useful with all this new energy and weight loss, went and had my hair done, went shoe shopping... went to a bbq. YES, we went to a bbq the other night and there was t-bone and pasta salad and potatoe salad and homeade angel food cake with whipped cream and strawberries. BEAUTIFUL dinner, we didn't eat and we were fine about it. It looked and smelled fabulous and even though we wished we could eat it we did not and we didn't have a hard time with it either.

Today we are having 350 g. of cabbage and 3.5 oz of shrimp with a strawberry smoothy for lunch, it is only 211 calories... we will need to beef up for dinner- we try and to 250 cal. per meal.

Day 6,7 & 8

I have to apoligize for skipping a couple of blogging days.
Day 6 was brutal for me, I was angry because I hadn't lost any weight and blamed my boyfreind for not calculating my calories correctly, he calculated 400 calories for my previous day rather than 500 calories and it caused me not to lose any weight. I was ugly and fat and angry and picked a huge fight with him.
It wasn't his fault, it was mine.. I need to be responsible for my own "stuff" and stop making excuses or blaming others.
Day 7 was much better, I did lose another 3 lbs and was delighted for this. The doc visit went well however we were not measured, we get measured our 3rd week not every week.
Day 8, today... I didn't lose any weight again, I did kind of cheat, I had my hair done and had a beautiful scalp massage from a fabulous hair dresser. Of course we aren't suppose to use cream rinse or conditioner unless we rinse it out IMMEDIATELY, he massaged it in and guess what? it was enough to cause me not to lose any weight. BUT, my hair looks fabulous!
I did remember to take a picture of our lunch and hopefully will remember dinner and every other meal beyond, the meals are good and the quanity isn't bad being that it is only 250 calories per meal.

3.5 oz of very very lean meat with any visible fat removed, 120 grams of spinach and 1 medium apple.

total: 253 calories

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Day 5

Today was supposed to be euphoric. I don't know if I would call it euphoric, however I felt really good, with a lot of energy, woke up 3 lbs lighter than yesterday and also notices that my clothes were fitting me differently. Looking at my boyfriend, can see how his body is changing too.

We shopped at a farmers market and bought some red and white cabbage, freezedried onion and oregano for seasoning (which is allowed) apples, cucumbers and strawberries.

The afternoons seem to be harder...  with cravings or wanting to munch however not too bad, not bad enought to get us to cheat...and again I did NOT take photo's of our meals!!! but, I had chicken and lettuce and for a treat we had a strawberry smoothie.
Writing it out, it sounds quite boring but it was fabulous. I put pepper and onion powder on my lettuce and squeezed lemon over it, the chicken I ate cold and the smoothie was just ice, 10 strawberries and stevia and I loved loved loved it! Mike had sea bass and slightly steamed cabbage with lemon and seasoning. I think both of us agree that the smoothie was quite a treat and that we needed it!

Emotions are coming up.. eating has been an armour and when you take away the food.. then what surfaces can be quite emotional. Letting go of the crutch and facing the emotion is hard to do but with a co-dieter it makes it easy. We have this extra weight for a reason and we kind of knew that it would bring up "issues" when we started to lose the weight or "deprive" ourself from the lovely comfort of food.

Lunch- we had shrimp with poultry seasoning and asparagus... for snack or desert we had sliced our apples and dipped them in cinamon and stevia and it was super good too! We came up with the idea to bake our apples with cinamon and stevia for a warm desert sometime in the future.

We are learning to be more creative with our food and this is really fun!
We are full after our meals and feel somewhat satisfied.. I could always eat more... I have the bad habit of eating until I am uncomfortably full.

Tomorrow we go in and see our Natrapath and she will measure us and weigh us and she also goes over our diets that we have been logging. I am excited to see the inch difference! She will also check our BMI and other stuff.

I wouldn't suggest doing this diet without a physicians help, I know that you can buy the drops or the shots on line and I also know that it can be dangerous.. not only do you not know what you are actually getting and what about the refrigeration?  You need to keep them cold.... but also... if you do not know if you have a prolactin issue or a thyroid issue or a diabetic issue then you may actually cause some great harm to yourself by taking hcg hormone.

We go to Naturally Nurturing in Gilbert, They are concerned about you health and not thier pocket book.. You call the doctor by her first name and it is a real comfortable clean office. There is a lovely herbalist on site, a chiropractor and hypnotherapist that are there several days a week.

Day 4

So, again... not hungry. However I do have cravings for something salty and crunchy. Didn't have breakfast but for lunch had chicken breast again and beet greens from my garden and finished with an apple. It was a real treat to know that I can have sparkling water and stevia, I bought root beer stevia and put it in my sparkling water and it was wonderful!

I am actually full. My boyfreind however is hungry and having lots of cravings.  . I think it is a habit of munching that he has but he calls it cravings so I am not sure which it really is. He also feels a loss in energy but is dealing with it quite well.

I peed 10 times yesterday in my four hour shift and only 3 times today, I was very glad that I am not peeing as frequently.

I did lose 6 lbs! I had gained 6 lbs over that weekend so I am where I started but it is still a happy loss since I was so worried about eating all that junk!

Sorry, I keep forgetting to take photos, I will add some tonight if I can just remember.

Day 3

Pleasantly surprised how easy the day is thus far. We woke about 7am and I did inject myself with my 3rd shot of HCG hormone. I injected it into my belly fat and didn't even flinch, absolutely painless.

The HCG hormone is given to us in syringes, we get a supply of them and take them home, we put them in the refrigerator and take them out about 10-15 minutes before using them. I hold my shot in my hand until it warms up to body temp and then inject it, Carefully and responsibly depositing the used syringe and needle in a sharps container and that is it.

I weighed myself and was concerned that I didn't gain enough weight, the 10lbs that I put on in the last two days was now only 6lbs and I know how crucial it is to put on weight the first two days but I just have to move forward from here.

I took two bottles of water to work and drank them for my four hour shift and consequently did use the toilet a total of tens time before my shift was over.

Came home and pulled out the 3.5 oz of pre portioned chicken breast that we had prepared the night before and a bag of spinach. So the chicken had to be weighed out before cooking and the spinach too. We decided to eat our spinach raw and since we need to eat a total of 500 calories for the day we decided to eat 250 at lunch which meant 8 cups of uncooked spinach, 1 medium apple and the 3.5 oz of chicken which totaled 246 calories. I haven't finished my meal and it has been an hour. I am still munching on the apple and the spinach and having to eat more than I feel that I need but again, I am told that it is important to eat the amount of calories that is required.

Today at work, I didn't feel hungry. Maybe it was all the water. Doesn't matter, I am not suffering a slow starvation death that I thought that I would. I did however crave texture and taste and found myself eyeing a co workers chocolate Easter egg lolly. I even picked it up and smelled it but wasn't even tempted really.

For Dinner I am going to pretty much have the same thing as lunch, I may cook the spinach... or trade them out for beet greens (which is allowed), I was pulling the fresh organic parsnips and beets from the garden, looking at the arrugula and parsley and wondering if a taste would hurt. I love eating from my garden but tonight, I will not. The beets I will give to my daughter and the beet greens perhaps I will eat. As far as the arrugula, parsley and parsnips... I will have to do without.

Day 2

It's loading day number two and I wake feeling lethargic and bloated. I weigh myself and see that I have gained 8 lbs from the way that I ate yesterday and it is a scary scary feeling. I keep reminding myself that this is important to eat this way.

My eyes are swollen, my B.O. is strong and toxic smelling and I am afraid to look in the mirror at myself. Afraid that I am really doing something wrong by eating this way and gaining these lb's and that I will never lose them. The fear is overwhelming however I am not feeling emotional like I was yesterday.









We gave each other our shots of the HCG hormone... again pretty painless. I am not sure if I could give myself a shot, I will try tomorrow.


We are on our way to Costco to buy our food for the week. Then we are going to portion it out and precook some of it. We are going to stop for some big awful greasy, carb loaded breakfast in between somewhere though, and eat eat eat ourselves to what feels like the death of us. I don't think it will be enjoyable.

We decided to make it easy on us and we ordered several Costco polish sausages and two slices of pizza which actually equals 4 slices.

I snapped at Mike, I think I am becoming a monster. I am fat and eat like a fat person and I am angry and mean... Eating like this is ugly and it makes me ugly and I teared up while apologizing for being so mean to him. He is a wonderful boyfriend and tried to encourage me, letting me know that this would be over and I will feel less and less self loathing as the weight drops off.

I told him that I am an emotional eater, that I am overweight for a reason, that when I lose the weight there will be a whole other side of me that emerges, that I will have to deal (and so will he) with the fears and the emotions of being thinner... I eat for a reason and I am fat for a reason and when I lose this protective blubber then will emerge another monster... he loves me, I am lucky... he is a good man and is very supportive which brings me to this...

Having support is crucial, having a co-dieter is a necessity and I would encourage that you don't take this on alone.

We bought wild white fish, shrimp and chicken breast tenders, loads of spinach and some asparagus for tomorrow, our five hundred calorie days..

But for today we ate our pizza, drank our soda and went home and had a polish sausage and a half. How do I feel? I feel gross! Later today we are going to a family gathering for a spring equinox party... homemade beer and a delightful dinner and sweets. Pics to follow!

I will include our diet and the instructions to the diet on the following days.

Day 1

It is loading day number one, we are to load up on fat and calories before we drop to 500 calories a day on days 3-26.

We have injected our HCG hormone this morning which was quite easy. The needle is so small and the amount of hormone to be injected is minimal.

We weighed ourselves and set out to commit fat and calorie suicide.

Breakfast: I bought two dozen Krispy Cream donuts, my teenagers were ecstatic. I have never walked into a Krispy Cream restaurant before, never bought Krispy Cream donuts before. I have eaten them, just not ever bought them.) This isn't how I normally eat. (I have an Organic Garden in my back yard for goodness sake and I eat vegetables!, This was SO wrong for me and I was looking so forward to being able to eat all this junk guilt free but now it was "D" day and it wasn't as easy as I thought.

I ate my first donut in the car, it was cream filled and delicious. I ate my second donut in the car on my way to a drive through burrito joint. It wasn't as delicious as the first donut but still quite yummy.

I ordered for myself, a large carne asada burrito and a large (32 oz) Horchata. Went home with the girls and we sat outside next to the organic beets and turnips and medicinal flower garden eating and drinking our self into oblivion. I could barely finish my burrito but, of course, I did. I couldn't have anymore of anything... no more donuts, no more horchata, no more anything and I went to the sofa and sat in misery watching a teenage movie with my girls. They... felt fine, the took a few bites of their burritos and stopped, I did not.

sitting in that self loathing lump misery, actually laying because my belly was wondering what in the world was I doing to myself... and I needed to stretch out in order to breath, I thought to myself.... this isn't so exciting, all this eating until it hurts, especially eating the foods that would quite possibly be the death of me.

My boyfriend calls on his way home from work and reminds me that we have a lunch date, we planned to go to our local pizza joint and order pizza and wings for lunch.

OMG! okay, and as I sit up from my laying down, I actually burped up a little bit of burrito, onion I think. I know what you are thinking, I could have spared that little bit of information but I have to keep this as real as possible.

Yes, I went to the Pizza Joint and met my boyfriend. Here is an exurb from my experience (from my practice journal)...

I started crying in line. I just couldn't eat anymore. This was so emotionally upsetting and wrong, and gross and please, when I sat up from the couch to get up and go meet him for pizza, I burped and up came up some burrito.

The barros cashier asked if she could help us, with a tear or two in my eye I order meat lovers pizza, she asked

"what size"..

my boyfriend said "large" and I said "nope, better make that an extra large".

Anything else she asked,

"yup, add some wings" I said. "12?" She piped and I said "no… 24, add a beer and two large soda’s please". Walked to the bathroom, avoided the mirror and wiped my tears…

What the hell am I doing? This is awful, this is dangerous… is this diet some kind of joke? Am I on some reality show? Wheres Ashton kutcher? I'm killing myself here and tonight we have plans to eat cheesecake and chocolate fudge sundaes.

Seriously NOT fun, I thought this would be fun… my boyfriend consumed 4 or 5 wings, and two or three slices of pizza and was smiling all the while I was holding back brunch from coming up with the wings that I was forcing down my throat and wiping a tear every now and then. All I could do was think how this must be some kind of joke, where is the joy in this? I love these food and refrain from eating them because of how unhealthy that they are yet now I am allowed to eat them and am emotionally a wreck about it?

I wasn’t told of the psychological affect this would have on me. I am full, my belly feels tight, I couldn’t even eat one slice of pizza.. only 3 wings, a couple drinks of my beer and about a half of a soda.

I came home and sucked the cream out of one of our donuts though, and when I was done with that… ate the donut. Can someone please tell me what that is about?

I don’t think that I can look in the mirror today at all. I am ashamed.

I have struggled with my weight for many many years. I have gone on a few diets but not a lot of them but my eating habits did get better over the last few years. Even though I eat quite healthy I still manage to eat too much and have a very sedentary life style.

Weight runs in my family, be it emotional eating, self indulging or plain out of control... doesn't matter, we all struggle with weight and I am at an age where I just can't deal with it anymore. It hurts, it is causing emotional havoc and quite well, may be killing me. My cholesterol has been an issue too but what is the worst is the physical and the emotional pain that this weight causes.

So, my boyfriend and I started this diet. The HCG diet, where you inject yourself with a tiny amount of the HCG hormone stuff yourself for two straight days and then eat certain foods for several weeks that equal no more than 500 calories a day.

They say that I won't be hungry. They say that I WON'T be hungry... oh boy, hmmmmm. Well, I am supposed to be pulling the other 2000 calories that I am not eating from storage that I normally don't pull from, that I can safely lose up to two lbs a day safely.

It is now 10:32, we gently rolled ourselves out of our car and gingerly walked into the house. We just got done eating Sushi at one of our favorite sushi spots, Sushi Kee. We had green salad, miso soup, hot tea, the seared tuna, snow white yellow tail, and then a spicy roll named after Red Mountain with shrimp, and two other fish smothered in a spicy sauce and poured over a roll that was fried. We couldn't eat it all but we did come close. We decided that the icecream and cheese cake could be eaten tomorrow.

I think I am in hell.